Pressure, heavy pressure, coming from above me, my left, my right, below, I’m trapped in a box made out of my own essays and I am running out of air. Deadlines are approaching at fast speeds and I’m losing my creativity flow. My writing is losing juice and although I’m cranking out essays on the daily, I’m concerned for their quality. Luckily, I have a nice English teacher who’s willing to read my essays and give feedback on them. But that can only help so much. Although she can fix all my grammar and punctuation errors, she can’t fix the content. My advice to the juniors out there: Start your essays over the summer.
As previously mentioned, I’ve been very stressed about college applications and essays. Recently, life has been twice as hard because my laptop was freaking out on me. My wifi kept turning off randomly on just my computer causing me to have to frequently turn it off and turn it back on. AND THEN, my bottom taskbar froze which basically kept me from going from chrome to word to whatever else. To top it all off, my electricity went out and it was freezing in my home and I wanted to do nothing but curl up in bed and watch movies. I just feel personally targeted at the moment because everything is going so, so wrong.
Where I am right now, the weather is awful. It is too cold for me to function properly. There’s a couple of parts that contribute to the awfulness of it all. Firstly, it’s usually about 40 degrees in the morning and 60 degrees in the afternoon. This has my body feeling super confused. And I don’t like it because I feel like I could get sick at any moment. Secondly, what happened to the in between? Did I just sleep through hoodie season or what? One day I was wearing shorts and a t-shirt and next thing you know I had to break out the north face and the layers and the sweatpants.