Semester – Independence – Success

I have 2 months of school left. There are less than 60 school days remaining. It’s unbelievable that I am almost done with this school system. I couldn’t be more excited to leave my high school. Unfortunately this last mile home stretch is a bit strenuous. With 5 exams upon me, I’m starting to regret my senior schedule. I only needed English to pass but I just had to stress myself out one last time!! I wish I had more time to do all the things I planned to but oh well.

My mom doesn’t think I can college. Honestly, I don’t think I can college. Thinking about the workload STRESSES me out. I’ve been thinking about it lately. And I’ve decided to make a pact with myself to start being mature and self accountable. I’ve already established some routines in my head to stay organized and healthy in college. Without my mom there to remind me to eat my fruits and vegetables, I really have to be self vigilant with my diet, ESPECIALLY with the buffet style dining plan. I’ll also have to learn to live with a roommate. This might be my biggest challenge yet. A lot of people are already trying to connect with others through facebook, but I just feel like going in random. It’ll either be the best or worst decision of my life. The comfort still lies with the fact that I’ll be really close to home if I ever need anything: like laundry.

Will I succeed in college? It took me a while to figure out just how to attain a 4.0 in high school. Like a whole semester. And this college GPA thing is scary. Apparently an A- isn’t even up to par anymore. That’s terrifying. Hopefully, I’ll be able to adapt to the environment quickly. But with all the fear and nerves, I am still incredibly excited to be a part of this new community of people. It’s a new stage in my life. And I’m so ready for something new.


Classmates – Job – Scholarships

In life, there are competitors in nearly every aspect. School and work especially are breeding grounds for social and academic climbers. I think competition can be very healthy for kids. It keeps us humble and hard-working. Simultaneously, it can be rough to accept this. It feels like there are these standards that just can’t be lived up to. But you know, accepting that you can’t be the best at everything is part of growing up. We find ourselves at these points in our lives at different stages. Some in high school, some in college, some in the working world. A great alternative is to simply compete with yourself.

I’m at the brink of senior year. With the impending college tuition looming over me, I’ve began questioning just where my funds are coming from. Initially, I did not want a job before college. I wanted to spend my senior summer traveling and having fun with my friends. I want to be refreshed and rejuvenated for college. But there’s a sense of guilt gnawing at the back of my brain. And as a result, I’ve applied to a few openings. I’m quite torn between hoping that I won’t get the jobs and hoping that I might.

To help out with my little financial crisis that will be reoccuring every year for the next 6 years, I’ve found a couple dozen scholarships that I could reluctantly apply to every week. They’re quite a bit of work with the essays, and rec letters. Sometimes they’re videos. It’s quite strenuous and extra. And I’m highly doubtful of my chances. I simply assume that there are many other teenagers across the country applying to the same stuff. What makes me stand out? I wish I knew.


Hiking – Just Do It – Global Warming

Hiking is dangerous. Hiking is scary. Hiking is some vigorous physical activity.                         Hiking is exciting. Hiking is fun. Hiking is fulfilling afterwards.                                                       I feel so many mixed emotions when I think about hiking. But at the end of the day, I always do it. Really, it’s the beginning of the day. It’s real tiring. But with good company, I think it’s a good time. Recently I’ve been going while it’s been colder. I think I will drown in my own sweat if I go when it gets warmer.

Just do it. – Nike. I tell people this all the time. I even try to tell myself this. Just do it. Just get it over with. Simultaneously, my aching back and freeze-dried brain can’t handle “doing” anything more. For some reason, they feel like going to sleep when they’re sitting in a chair at a desk. But they feel like staying up when they’re in bed with their laptop. I love being productive and feeling like I’m not wasting time. But sometimes, I feel like I’ve been too productive, that I need to waste some time if I want to lead a normal life. Suddenly, I’m stuck in the same procratinator rut.

Global warming is real. Don’t be a dumb snowball holding jerk. If any point in life, there isn’t any more snowballs, then we would seriously be in trouble. That’s not to say this irregular weather pattern isn’t a major signal for some serious atmospheric threats. I believe I’ve truly experience all 4 seasons in one week last week. On Monday it was 70 degrees, and on Friday it snowed. If that’s not the earth screaming at us, I don’t know what is.